The Need to Believe
(CEV) "The Notebooks 1943", p. 210
Jesus says: "If you consider my statement, 'In truth I tell you that the publicans and prostitutes will enter into the kingdom of God before you,' you can understand what the power of believing is, when it is absolute and upright in intention. This is also why I tell you not to judge any of your brothers and sisters and not foolishly say, 'I am untroubled about my soul, for I have not committed serious sins.'
No, for in truth you commit a greater sin than the publican and the prostitute do, since they are dominated by fleshly passion, whereas you are disorderly in the passions of the mind. You are lacking in Charity and thus offend God; you are lacking in humility and thus disgust Him; you are lacking in contrition and thus render Him severe.
The poor publican and the poor prostitute, who may have been led to be such by so many things, when they encounter God's gaze, believe in Him and come to Him with all their strength in faith, love, humility, and repentance. And then it is not only a superficial lavacre, but a saturation of my Power which heals them and makes them heroes.
But you...! So few are those capable of being firm in faith in their God! Look, Maria: like snow falling from the clouds, so souls plummet down because of a lack of faith. And if it was once a slow snowfall, it is now more and more frequent like a storm. Poor souls! They would have such a need to believe in order to save something of their spirits, already so deeply wounded. Instead, they are no longer able to believe.
And what do they believe in, then, if they do not believe in Me, who am eternal? To live without believing is impossible.
Whoever does not believe in God, in the true God, will necessarily believe in other gods.
Whoever does not believe in any god will believe in idols, believe in the flesh, believe in money, have faith in the power of weapons. But in the end one cannot live not believing in anything.
Worse than the darkness enveloping the blind is the darkness of the soul without faith in anything human or superhuman. All that remains for it is to kill body and soul in violent death.
When Judas no longer believed in Me, in the satisfaction of money, or in the protection of human law, he killed himself. Remorse over his crime? No. If it had been that, he would have killed himself immediately after grasping that I knew. But not then, not after the vile kiss and the loving greeting, not then, not when he saw Me spat upon, bound, dragged away amidst a thousand insults.
Only after having understood that the law did not protect him -the poor human law, which often creates or provokes crime, but afterwards washes its hands of its executors or accomplices and, if need be, turns against them and, after having used them, strikes them dumb forever by eliminating them- and only after having understood that power and money were not forthcoming or were too base to produce happiness, only then did he kill himself. He was in the darkness of nothingness. He cast himself into the darkness of hell.
The world is becoming a chaos without light because the light of believing is increasingly going out in hearts. It is a spiritual death which horrifies the spirits living in Me.
I thus tell you that if a publican or a prostitute believes in Me, they will enter into my Kingdom before you. For whoever really believes in Me lives in obedience to my Word. If a sinner, he is redeemed; if without sin, he is preserved from it.
Maria Valtorta: The Notebooks
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